Try, Try Again

Well I'm back!!!

Everyone knows diets fail and I can officially say I have and am on that roller-coaster. But good news for all of you out there cuz I'm not giving up. I have exactly 3 months and 14 days until my wedding and I am going to lose weight no matter what!! I have to and I will.

Simple as that.

So starting Tuesday Next week, I will be posting my lunch meal every day. I have to do this to ensure myself that I'm eating enough. I am do have to control portion size because it seems the only time I eat in the day I eat a lot. Then I snack all day. So no more to that. I will have Water when I wake up before my cereal/or smoothie then have a healthy snack, then a great healthy lunch, then another healthy snack followed by my supper smoothie with a little crunch to curve my night time wants.

I am also going to be drinking at least 8 waters a day. I have to. So I'm going to do it.

Then for exercise, I have purchased a 10 dollar fitness DVD by Bob from The Biggest Loser he has a 10 minute ab program along with a 45 minute workout. AND just Guess how long I'm going to be working out.

45 minutes?

60 minutes?

NOPE!!! 3 hours!!!

WHy?

Because on the biggest loser, they work out more than 3 hours everyday and lose a significant amount of weight and with being healthy (obese but healthy) I can workout for that long. Just because I get tired doesn't mean I can't keep going. It's just my brain telling me I'm tired right? Right!

Ok it's time to get started. I will be writing down what I'm eating every day til the 7th and will post this on my first post the night of the 7th with my lunch meal and so forth. Time to get this thing going.

Loves,

Well if only time meant more progress...

I'm sitting here reading tons of blogs regarding losing weight and finding a better life and women who have been put on fitness magazines from losing weight and I want to be happy for them, I want to feel the strength they have to help me with my battles but what do I feel.

Sadness.

No one wants to be around you when you're on the journey, but after you won it, everyone wants to be a part of it. They want to ask for your help and all that, but whats wrong with sticking it out with someone who can only work hard every day hoping to reach the same point as those 100+ lbs lighter group.

I was reading someone saying most dieters she read have talked about the body they had before their weight-loss as another person. When I think about their journey, I see nothing similar to myself. I have lost 9.3 lbs after three months. No weight watchers helping me out, no money to get things that could significantly help me leap over that huge and tough step that arrives in the beginning. Such as "Get your ass up and do it!" It would be easier if I had planned meals and work outs waiting for me, but I don't. So I'm slowly getting over my hump and I know for a fact that who I am now will be the same person whether I succeed on this journey or lose. Will I be able to do more if I lose this weight and reach my goal, yes! Will I make more memories after losing as I would have if I had lost my weight, most likely no! So I'll be happy either way, but will I really be living my life if I didn't go through with this?

I don't think so.

I came across this blog that tends to have a ton of followers, etc. The girl was popular before she lost her weight. She had friends enjoyed life. Was she happy I don't know. But for me my life has stopped because of my weight. I have been heavy since I was 5. I don't have any sob story for the reason I have been stuck in this 238 lb body. I just don't have any self-esteem.  Is that what made me, me? Is that the reason I haven't cared to change myself all these years?

I'm 23, college student, mother of 2, engaged and still I'm unhappy.

But I'm trying.

Day by day.

Meal by meal.

Snack by snack.

I worked out almost every day for a month and lost 3.6 lbs. Was that enough for me, no. I was hurt, I felt as I had accomplished nothing. But I did and just didn't know it til now. Food is still controlling me and I have to turn it around. I have to be the one controlling my food. I have to not be afraid of it. It's never been my enemy, it's been my long time best friend since I could remember. Food has never let me down....until now.

So for those going on this journey with me I hope you stick around, cuz we still have a long way to go. But it's better doing it together then by ourselves. But finding the way is going to be the biggest step of your life. And right now sitting at this computer I'm ashamed I'm not doing something more to get this going. So I'm leaving it at that and I'll be back soon!

A month down!

Well everyone after one month of success I lost.....

6 Pounds!!

So I'm proud to say that I did beat my sister the first month of our competition. However, I don't know how with everything she did, we both thought we were going to both have gained weight. 

It was the holiday season and we figured we would have ate too much, my mom even said to me she didn't think I ate enough, but I was STUFFED!

I didn't take any measurements even before I started and I still haven't (I don't own a tape measure) So I'm going to ask to borrow one from my mom soon. 

On January 15th my sis asked if we wanted to weigh ourselves and I sadly not going to agree, but we both figured it would help motivate us for the rest of the month. Well I had only lost .4 oz. 

UGHGH! 

So now I have gotten into the whole joining every site to try to get some motivation as my sister and I are really just competing, there isn't much motivating involved with each other. 

So if any of you are on MyFitnessPal.com or Spark People look up IHateDietsMO2.

On another note, I wrote down everything I did in Dec to figure out why I haven't lost any weight in Jan. 

For one I didn't work out but three times in Dec.

I did, however, only eat out about 3 times the entire month. 

Did have ONE slice of Pizza Hut pizza.

Ate THREE McDouble Cheesburgers from McDonalds.

Now I work out every night at 8 with my sister at her house to some work out videos. 

She has so many of the Jillian Michaels things and right now we are on level 2 of 30 Day Shred.

And I've only lost .4 oz. How is this???

Ehhh just gonna try to stick to it, I have 9 days left, wish me luck!!

Laying it all out.....

From the two posts I've posted here at my blog, I think it's time I give you all a little more info on me. I'm practically crying knowing I'm going to be doing this, but here it goes.

Thank you to Brandi who made me realize, I needed to do this post.

So you all know I have been overweight most of my life. My senior year I was lucky enough to get down to 176, then I went to college and gained 30 lbs. Then I got pregnant gained 20 more. I was 222 by the time I had my daughter in 2009. Then I went right back to 206 as my pre-weight before pregnancy. So once I got pregnant again, I figured the weight would just fall off of me like it did the first time. Well I was wrong. Instead of losing the weight after my son was born late 2010 I gained 20 more lbs.

I don't know why I have never tried a diet before, but I'm pretty sure it was because my lack of motivation. Wrong I do know why, they always say diets don't work. Of course I worked out for like a week, then just stopped. I definitely never thought I would have to do it. However, now with two kids, I realize I do have to do it. Not just for me, but for them. So for the first time ever I'm going to post my pictures my sis took of me the day she decided we try to do a competition since nothing else was motivating us enough.

So here I am at 238!!

Gosh quickly scroll so you don't hurt your eyes. LOL. Sry of the quality they are a picture of her camera screen.

Well for a long time my family and friends have said to me, "You don't look fat," or "There's no way you weigh that much." Well looking at these pics they were just trying to be very nice. Lol

Humor is always a way for me to blow off being fat, I have learned I've done that almost every day I hang out my sisters. I have to stop doing that! So a little goal for me is to quit the fat jokes!!!

I wear size 22 pants and usually fit best in 2x tops but I don't like tight clothes as it really shows every curve of my body.

I use to wear shorts before I had my son, but now I don't. I also just wore shorts in this pic cuz my sister made me. I had black yoga pants on when I got to her house.

From reading things Brandi did when she first started her get healthy roll, she stayed away from fast food for 3 months and quit drinking pop altogether. So I'm going to use the same goal. It's a great first goal for me. I'm not gonna have a goal to lose 5 lbs etc, just yet, because I know that if I was to say I want to lose 5 lbs by the next two weeks and not reach it I would be very depressed. So none of those type of goals yet, until I see if things I am doing are working.


Ok, I need to put these pictures on my refrigerator! That sounds like a good idea. Healthy food list is still in process and I found a few links to the Insanity workout, however, I have decided, Insanity is for those that are skinny that want muscles not people who are fat like me who want to get skinny. I almost hurt myself. No good!

Well I hope you are still wanting to stick around to see where this goes, cuz I need all the motivation I can get! Let's get ready!

Loves,

Healthy Recipe

Hey everyone! So this week has been going pretty well. I have been working out both nights since I started this blog, the second night however, my son decided to shut the PlayStation off TWICE so I only got about a 20 min workout the second time. Tonight, I will be able to fully work out while hubs watches the kids. But anyways, this post is going to be about some of the common foods I already make and finding a healthy alternative to them.

SO first off I'll start with some fajitas. This is my favorite thing EVER!!!

I would normally make it with a seasoning packet, but that means more sodium, more fat, more calories. So I will be following this recipe!

http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/food-network-kitchens/chicken-fajitas-recipe/index.html


Nutritional analysis per serving: (2 fajitas)
Calories 347; Total Fat 8g (Sat Fat 1g, Mono Fat 3g, Poly Fat 1g) ; Protein 31g; Carb 37g; Fiber 5g; Cholesterol 66mg; Sodium 157mg

I don't care for avocados or plain yogurt, so i will use non-fat sour cream 2 scoops for I believe 20 calories. Well worth it! 


I'm really upset that now exercise TV site is closed and will not be up for those without a membership or without purchasing the videos from iTunes. I don't get how the world today criticizes us fat people then makes it extra hard to get the things we need. I shouldn't have to pay to be healthy, I don't have money for that. THAT'S WHY I'M OVERWEIGHT ALREADY!!!

So I guess I'll just stick to my Zumba. I have heard while browsing the grocery store a couple ladies asking about seeing each other at a Zumba class, so I know there are most likely classes set up around your town if you look into it.

Check your facebook for weight loss groups in your community, they might have a group page, then check zumba.com for some info see if you can find a class. I know they might be 12 bucks so it just might be easier to get the video on iTunes for that much.

I'm thinking of making up some easy workouts to do at home and maybe that can help with those that have no money to spend and no time to get out of the house for extra stuff. I know my car will not be liking this winter weather headed my way so anything inside would be really helpful.

Ok, well I'm going to do a full hour of workout here starting at 8 so I better get too it.

Remember, those on The Biggest Loser workout like 3-6 hours a day!!! So if I want to lose anything I got to get my butt moving!!!!

Screw diets let's make our own rules,

Loves!

Ugh my first try at dieting!

Hey Everyone!


I'm glad you came to my new blog about dieting! I know there's probably millions of blogs out there like this, but this one is exactly what I need to get motivated. To let you all know, I'm 22 and engaged with two lovely babies under the age of 2. You think with both of my kids and running around I'd be able to maintain a healthy weight, but because I had them so close I haven't been able to get rid of the weight from my last child. I've been overweight my whole life. When I graduated 8th grade I weighed 206!!! Oh My I know!! I now weigh the most I ever have in my life. That's right 238!! Gosh I should quickly erase that before I press post. Being 5'7" my friends always said I never looked that big, but really you know when you look big or not. So a couple days ago one of my sisters decided it was time for us to get on track. She's no where near as heavy as I am, but she wants to lose weight for her little one as well. So she gave me a little wager. By December 31st, whomever loses the most weight get's a free dinner. If I lose I buy her dinner, she loses, she buys me dinner.

Better yet, at our favorite restaurant!

Now, I'm no health freak. I buy groceries in bulk so I don't have to keep going back and forth to the store. (With two kids, it's never fun or easy to do) So I'm starting new. I have to retrain myself how to eat, what to eat, and when to eat. Also I have no money to buy weight loss crap and I'm being for real. Money goes to diapers and things kids need, so no professional trainer, or DVD's. I do have Zumba for the PlayStation that I borrowed from a friend that is no longer using it. This will be my 2 hour work outs that will be mentioned in a moment. So if you are poor and over weight, lets do this together and get fit. I'm sooooo ready to be healthy I can't stand it! Plus I really want to go to my favorite Restaurant! :)

You think it sounds easy, but we all know it's not. Kids are constantly snacking and it's so hard to not finish what they wont eat.

I was raised to clean my plate, that's how I've always been. Never waste anything! I need to get a new mindset and see that not eating everything on my plate is ok. I can just do leftovers and that is perfectly fine. Learning how to eat will be my first challenge.

I started this diet Monday and it's now Tuesday. What I'm going to be doing is simply changing the way I eat and getting at least 30-45 high activity exercise 5-7 days a week. 2 of those days I will have a break and 2 of the 5 I work out I will workout 2 hours a day.

From seeing the foods I eat, I have calculated I don't eat over the recommended calorie intake of 2000 calories I should be limiting myself. However, after further research I have learned 1600 is where I should be limiting myself.

So first off listing my weaknesses:
McDonalds McDouble- Only a dollar and I usually get 3. Eat two myself and my daughter and son will usually split one and sometimes they don't even eat all of that. They also eat applesauce which I have loaded up in the refrigerator. Calories in McDonalds McDouble is 390. EACH!!!!

Pop: I usually get a pop whenever I am out of the house. I'm a very thirsty person. LOL! I just usually always want something to drink. A large from McDonalds is 310 calories.

I love cooking so I am going to try to find some healthy things to cook. I occasionally cook tacos, lasagna, chili, fajitas, RiceaRoni, Campbell's soups (Which I gained thirty pounds with just during 2 months at college), Ramen Noodles.

I found this just now while looking at the calories.

To download yourself go to http://www.exercisetv.tv/slimdown/.



Now do you see how ridiculous that is going to be for me!!!!! How are skinny people not starving to death!!! I am just looking at this grid!

However, she also has a list of stuff we need to have in our refrigerators, which is exactly what I need!!

This should definitely help, but after reading how can anyone feel satisfied with this stuff, tofu. Is real meat that bad for you? I want to enjoy my food the little amount I get. If food wasn't made for us to enjoy it why the heck is it EVERYWHERE, it shouldn't be a want for me, but a need. That's what I need to change in my mind as well. I shouldn't need food for entertainment, just a need. 

I always have fruits and a vegetable for my kids, but you can see I'm not eating healthy and if I want my kids to be healthy I have to change the way I eat NOW!! So here I go, my first real diet.

Here is a look for what I want to plan for this blog.

Every Monday, a weeks list of food.

Every Monday, a list of exercises I will be doing with links because there really are some nice workout videos online!!

I can't afford a trainer so these are all just what I'm trying to see if it works or not. I'm not a professional at this and I literally am going in blindfolded. Wish me luck!!!

Loves,